she... maybe the reason im alive

thats only a lyric.u knoe im always play the song and i think of her.maybe i have made a big mistake towards her b4 this..i always want my mother to have the best moment in her life after what she had done to all of us.im willing to sacrifice my social life just to be with her.i want to let she knows that she is always on top of the list.what i need now is to improve the level of my 'kesabaran'=P